Last night, one of our classmates was laid to rest. She was 50 years old. My age. Here lately, I experienced several deaths of "young" people (50ish) and am having a hard time dealing with it.
I know that we should live our lives because we can be called to "Glory" anytime. I guess that is why I'm having these morbid thoughts lately. I do not feel "ready". The main thing is I am concerned about is my relationship with God. I know I love the Lord and He is the reason for my existence. I just feel that I have not been living my life as he requested. I know without him, I cannot accomplish much. Right now I feel stagnant.
It just became a lot clearer that I need to lean on God for guidance and strength. Be patient and try to reconnect with him spiritually. Problem is I don't know where to start. Well, I suppose that's a lie. I've been taught all my life to drop down on my knees and just start a conversation. Put it the Lord's hands. Sounds like a good place to start......
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